That might as well be my opening line, because the way I'm acting lately with the boyfriend* ...
(In past posts the "boyfriend" was "Mr. Date")
So I find out that the boyfriend is spending his Thanksgiving in his college state to visit his ex-girlfriend's family and a few friends. The problem is that it pisses me off to no end, but no matter how I bring it up or how upset I act about it, there always ends up being some sort of "resolve" and the problem "goes away".
That fear, that insecurity, is coming back. The one where I dread being alone or never finding anyone like this guy. I'm afraid to lose like I was in my last relationship and that caused me to put up with a lot more shit than I should have.
I really need to take a stand and stop fucking around. It's time to put my foot down and demand the things that I want, fuck it, why not? I know what I'm worth and deserve what I ask for (which in my eyes is perfectly reasonable). Next time he visits the old alma mater, I should be there.
If he wants me in his life, he's going to need to start acting like such.
Le Petite Coquette
xoxo
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